pixie with a purpose!

love Audrey! back to the onslaught of finals...

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It's been quite a while since my last blog post.

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but today I am festively playing with my faeries.

Do you have any? I'm sure you do, you're just not aware of them. Some people are so critical and ignorant of the depths of our realm, but it's important to be open! that way,you will find your faeries!

Today I was sitting outside starting a watercolor painting, and all of a sudden the faeries appeared and took over my body in the most delightful way.They make you ever so light and happy,giggly and wiggling in a golden newborn blissful state!

The faeries said, we sleep in pods, so I painted two little ones sleeping in their pods, protected by their mama. Do you like it? I do.Well, what's more important than liking it is that it is a truthful and direct message from the faeries,and that they approve of it!

Oh wonderful faeries, thank you for being here!

Anti Gobble Day

That Time of Year Again

It’s that time of year again, when people go into a frenzy over dead birds. I have never cooked fowl or meat, and no fish for three years, so here’s my take on Anti Gobble Day.

I’ll make cornbread, sauteed kale something to do with yams,and a quinoa salad with tofu. I am not sorry, I REFUSE to have anything to do with meat,bird or fish in the kitchen and I REFUSE to clean it up.That’s what men are for, we women cook provide nourish and clean, stretch our hearts out very far and our arms even wider.

Hmm I always seem to get off track.

Never having coffee glazed anything again,especially macadamia nuts. Oh processed food, oh corn syrup,oh sugar,you are mine enemies!

Good Stuff

The positive energy created by myself and others

Is the seed of happiness of all the world.

Lama in whom I always rejoice,

Turn the wheels of sutra and tantra

In accordance with the predisposition of beings."

"In the tip of the vajra between the eyebrows,

The light of the sun, moon and stars swirls in the drop.

By bringing mind and energy to that point,

The white bodhimind is forever increased."

Gyalwa Kalzang Gyatso, Seventh Dalai Lama

Wind is Here!

Just when I want or need it to

the wind comes back

right now she is gentle

but all the same

the stirring and movement helps me

in these moments,which have become hours,

of pain.

Please stay,wind and clouds.

Stay and ground me.

Streamline

Streamline

How do you streamline your life, whittling it down the to the basics, the absolute necessities? I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately.Not only about the material things you have (all those books!!!!) which seem to clog your room, but also about the processes you deal with, the way you go through things emotionally (or without emotion). Refreshment and renewal of the way you are handling your life, the direction you want to go and the perusal of your visions and fulfilling aspects should never be underestimated.

What brings me to this concept is a very beautiful book I am reading.Well,not only that.But back to the book! It’s called Blindness, by Jose Saramago. In this book, one person after another is instantaneously afflicted by blindness. The reactions of the people, as well as their domestic partners, the doctors they go to, is really quite amazing. It shows the depth and perception of human beings of all levels, and how their emotions really make an effect on their lives.

By nature and genetics I am a very emotional person. Sometimes I put too much emotion in things, other times I react in a visceral and dry way. It is a very difficult thing to plan your reaction to life events, which should never be attempted ! Yet at the same time, sacrificing too much of your energy and emotion into something really does drain you. It’s fine, normal and perfectly healthy to put your emotions and energies into the necessary things and people, but at the same time, an awareness of that and re evaluation of the way you emotionally live and exist is a very wise thing.

Another topic I’d like to touch upon is self evaluation. We live in a day and age, a society, where it is normal to sacrifice yourself for your career, your family, to attain a certain standard of life, appearance, and many other aspects. You are seemingly expected to be happy with these standards, to not question them, to be grateful for them in fact.

The wisest thing is to evaluate yourself not from the standards that society is pressuring you on, if you can. A gradual attainment of a healthy self image is imperative.It is not only based upon your physical appearance, but also your mental, emotional, essential parts of yourself. These parts are all significant components of your whole self, and it is SO very important not to neglect them.

At times, the hardest things for you may be the easiest things for others. Do not compare yourself with others, because not only do you devalue yourself, but it’s not really about others in the long term.It is totally about yourself, in a healthy and satisfying way. Not only can you learn to make yourself happy, generate self love and fulfillment, but when you exist on a level of true happiness, all the various aspects of your life will come together in the most beautiful harmony and manifestation.

So don’t ever give up…you may be frustrated at times, which is normal, but it is essential in the long term to devote yourself to the most important and relevant goal out there…

your true happiness.

I've Got Sunshine On A Cloudy Day

This year I started realizing how much happiness can affect yourself,your life, everything you do! and also patience with yourself and self love.Those are very vital. Well I'm just reminded of a song from the movie Father of the Bride..

"I've got sunshine on a cloudy day

When it's cold outside, I've got the month of May
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?

My girl, my girl, my girl
Talkin' 'bout my girl
My girl

I've got so much honey, the bees envy me
I've got a sweeter song than the birds in the trees
Well, I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?

My girl, my girl, my girl
Talkin' 'bout my girl
My girl
Ooh

Hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey
Yeah

I don't need no money, fortune or fame
I got all the riches baby, one man can claim
Well, I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?

My girl, my girl, my girl
Talkin' 'bout my girl
My girl

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day
With my girl
I've even got the month of may
With my girl

Talkin' 'bout, talkin' 'bout
Talkin' 'bout my girl, my girl
That's all I can talk about
Is my girl"

and now I feel the epitome of those words,except I'm not a girl and not anyone's but myself.And it is just wonderful.